Planning my uni timetable for this year and really battling with this keyboard. It's been about since the end of October since I have done any serious work typing and this is basically an attempt at warming up after a pretty long break full of events.
Mainly festival type events actually although I didn't go to St Kilda fest today, instead taking a break to enjoy my Sunday. FF14 and podcasts. Pizza and pastries.
I think I will be original and try to keep my weekends as long as possible with my timetable preferences. Fridays and Mondays off hopefully. I had the worst ever timetable both semesters last year and it made me really hate uni. Lost a bit of enthusiasm even at this point and just have to pull down those boot socks and strap on for what I'm sure will be another bumpy year.
The subjects I have half assedly assembled to make my final year complete and hopefully round out my degree better work out to be interesting as at this point I don't have the effort or desire to change them. The mission however will be accomplished by the end of this year and we will see which side of the pass/ fail line I land. I have a habit of fucking everything up when it comes to the pointy end of things.
My constant dread about the future has been manageable due to the immediate needs and tasks at hand during the last 2 or 4 years, I don't know. But it feels like time has caught up with me finally.
I have been on the run from adulthood even at 27 it seems and the last 5 years in various full time work/ study has been plenty enough of a strain on relationships and finances making this final (?) year all the more difficult to face now it's here.
2009 I started at Holmesglen Institute of TAFE without a clue that I would end up here 5 years later without even a basic Bachelors undergraduate degree. A year off in 2011 to work full time before starting at Deakin in 2012 it honestly felt like I was starting fresh.
An invigorating, stimulating and just plain interesting start. 3rd year along now and the culmination of essentially half a decade feels disappointing to say the least. My friend is a lecturer here while I am getting my simple straight old Arts degree (toilet paper).
The year will unfold as it does and I'm sure it's just nerves. Once it's over I would just as happily work night shifts in a freezer for rent for an apartment in Dandenong or follow more lofty goals to far away lands, we'll see and I'm sure it's just nerves building up right now.
I will try maintaining this at least every Sunday to maintain my sanity over the coming weeks.
